Tuesday, December 29, 2009

A Blog in Limbo

For a while now, I've been really debating what to do with this blog. It's kind of stalled and fizzled out. I've been cooking.... oh, have I been cooking. I've baked more in the past few months than I ever have in my life, and in this past year I've discovered it's my main passion and talent. I've attempted to launch a small business, or really, to explore what having my own small business would be like, which has been rewarding, frustrating, interesting, and exhausting all at the same time. I've pretty much come to the conclusion that owning a bakery is not in my immediate future.... at least, I don't see it right now. I know that God has gifted me with this talent; I am not at all sure if that's how He intends me to use it.

I am not even sure if I will return to the farmer's market come Spring. Don't get me wrong.... I loved being there. I loved making people happy with my baked goods. Seeing customers that I didn't know before come back each week to buy my brownies or my cupcakes. I couldn't believe that people actually enjoyed my food that much. It really spurred me on the whole season to keep baking, keep creating. I enjoy serving people and giving them something comforting to lift up their day and bring a smile to their face.

On the flip side, it wasn't always easy. All of my Thursday and Friday evenings were completely taken over. And it didn't just effect me; my hubs was usually always there beside me, helping me. He always came with me on Saturdays, too. The time commitment is just huge. And, ultimately, there are just bigger priorities in my life than just baking. Like my relationship with Jesus. And my marriage. I could go on and on.

Ultimately, this had an effect on the blog. I had no time to take pictures, and if you're trying to start a business, you're not going to share your recipes. At least, not until you've actually made money.

All of this rambling and almost stream-of-consciousness chatter is to say that I'm at a crossroads in my life. I'm still figuring out "what I want to be when I grow up" and taking time for that has affected the blog (that and my laptop dying, etc).

I guess what I am wondering is.... if I stopped writing Biscuits & Honey, and blogging about food, would anyone miss this? Would I miss it? I know I have these last few months... I just have to find the time.

Until then.....

much love,